Thursday, January 17, 2008

Cuttin'Up

I pretty much got over that funk I was in a while back.

I started Yoga

working out at the gym

volunteering with families in crisis

going to a community church group

and I am better.

I still am scared of Interstates, though.

But

all this got me thinking

I remember almost nothing from my childhood....

Hmmm

Maybe I need therapy.

Then my mom had a fall.

She wasn't hurt badly, thank God

but she had to stay with me for 4 days

during which time I actually jumped up and down in frustration 3 times!

So I went to a therapist

(right after I took Mom home)

They asked a lotof questions

was I suicidal?

no

was I homicidal?

no

Did I ever hurt myself?

no

Did I ever cut myself?

NO

Again, pointedly...Was I SURE I nver cut myself?

YES!

The therapist gave an extrememly significant glare at my leg.

Sure enough, there was blood soaking my jeans, down into my shoe....

I had a little cut shaving and thought it had quit bleeding.....

only me....

I swear, I'm just having a little problem dealing with an aging parent.......

20 comments:

princesssaurora said...

OMG... too funny!  He thought you were an emo cutter gal!  LOL  I do hope the therapy helps... it is hard to deal with parents period, and if you have some unresolved shit, well, then, even harder!!!  {{{ hugs and love }}}

be well,
Dawn

sdoscher458 said...

Oh, that's embrassing. Memory is a funny thing, if you sit quietly and think of people from old times like your grandparents...nothing comes to you? I can remember being ten years old and sitting on my Grandparents porch in Norfolk swinging on their porch swing while it thundered & poured all around me - but I felt safe contained on their porch.....maybe that's why I love your porch stories so much.....love, Sandi

bhbner2him said...

It's a wonder they didn't run right in with a straight jacket for you dear!! LOL  The rotten joke of life is that right when we are entering years of change in our lives, parents are reaching that time when they need us most.  I don't know if you need a therapist or not, but I'll lend you some moral support and a prayer.  -  BArbara

hpycmpr155 said...

Dealing with aging parents can be VERY difficult.
They say it exacerbates and magnifies any existing family problems.

I have been there done that (my parents were somewhat difficult and noncompliant) and I have a good friend who has been doing it on her totally own (no siblings, little outside support) for over 5 years. It has beome her entire life.

It can be exhausting and draining.
Good luck to you.
Glad to see a new journal entry.

        sunny

kamdghwmw said...

We took care of Rusty's mom after my father in law passed away. I helped take care of my dad while he was on his death bed. I so know where you are coming from. I am here for you. I will be strong when you feel like you can't be. The kettle is always on, so stop by.
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

ukgal36 said...

this made me laugh out loud..the blood thing..not the aging parents..
I am still here for ya...
Lyn

toonguykc said...

Over the years I've found that therapists are more troubled than the people they take money from.  Hmmmm

xxx
Russ

deshelestraci said...

Oh dear!  LOL  I like all of the changes you have made!  Good for you.  I spent a week with my mom and didn't jump up and down with anger but about once.  First time in years!!!!  I'm making progress.  But yeah, I don't remember much about my childhood either.
Traci

am4039 said...

happy you started yogo, So sorry about your mom. Sounds like you have been very busy.

rdautumnsage said...

Some days I wish quite a bit of the trunk full of memories that are resurfacing for me stayed lost in the attic of my mind. They have a way of creeping up on you unawares....Therapy.....It can help , if you can find one that actually listens to you instead of elaborating on what they think is wrong without having heard a word you said. All the things you've been doing sound positive. Your in my thoughts dear friend. Stay safe and loved! Oh, and stop cutting yourself (winks). (Hugs) Indigo

gazker said...

Two aging parents are even more frustrating ;-)
Happy New Year, Gaz xxxxxxx

lindaggeorge said...

What worries me is, what are our kids going to say about us when we get to that age?

Linda.

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lindaggeorge said...

Do excuse the odd quote below, something very strange going on here!!!!!!
Linda.

shrbrisc said...

hang in there girl I have been there and I am there now lol
hugs
Sherry

helmswondermom said...

Oh no!  What bad timing!
Glad you're getting over that funk, and I hope your mom is doing okay.
Lori

bgilmore725 said...

So while your mom was there, did she tell you any stories about you growing up so you would remember? I hope she gets well soon! bea

jmorancoyle said...

    Glad to hear it was a shaving cut. But honestly, been there and done that with an aging parent. I'm sending all my love and patience your way, because it is very hard to deal with them.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

plieck30 said...

Guess I missed this alert when I was ill. Just checked in because I was thinking of you and wishing you well. Paula

lurkynat said...

Dear Marti,
oh wow!
hey love ya'!
hugs,nat

lurkynat said...

Dear Marti
love ya much!
love,nat